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"bannered with crimson, sentineled by star.." LM Montgomery
It is 31 days till the fulfillment of a lifelong dream, a long yearned for visit to PEI -Maud's home and her lovely vista of childhood wonder.
Today, I feel a sadness for Maud that almost brings me to tears. I think it has to do with some words by Thomas Wolfe which are ringing like a sad bell. It is a quote from "Look Homeward Angel" where he describes his feelings of being "lost, on this weary unbright cinder". Maud never knew that she was lost and in darkness. The outside world was so beautiful to her.
Perhaps when the ugliness crept into her life, if she had known, like Wolfe, that being lost and in darkness is the common state of man, she would not have felt so desperately alone.
I hope to get a sense of the spirit of Maud Montgomery on my visit to PEI, though I'm not sure that it is necessary to travel there to get it.
Still, Maud loved the island so very much!! There must be some shadow or a whispering of her spirit which is lingering there.
O waste of loss, in the hot mazes, lost, among bright stars on this most weary unbright cinder, lost! Remembering speechlessly we seek the great forgotten language, the lost lane-end into heaven, a stone, a leaf, an unfound door. Where? When? O lost, and by the wind grieved, ghost, come back again.
Thomas Wolfe - Look Homeward Angel
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